Ramblings

Live your moments…..

If the last year has taught me anything it’s to hold onto your loved ones and to live the moments….don’t wait, don’t put off the fun, don’t make the excuses. Just go and do!

While I realize not everything is so easy to just go and do, but make the best efforts you can. We don’t know when the next chance to have random ice cream dates with our kids will be. Or the next time we can run for the beach and see the sunset. My best memories I’ve made with my kids this last year have been spontaneous! We’ve gone to the park at the last minute, gone for special treats, or made random beach trips just to hear the waves crashing.

While I’ve regretted decisions I made this last year, none involved just doing things with those I love! And not just my kids, but dropping everything to help drive a friend in need. Deciding to throw on clothes for an impromptu hike by myself to clear my head. I’ve not regretted those choices. I’ve not regretted saying yes to things even though I’m scared to death how it’ll turn out.

I do regret not answering when someone’s called me and not pushing harder to do the things I wanted to do with certain people. Because now that time has passed, the window of opportunity closed and it makes me sad for the missed chances.

So while the world is constantly revolving and changing be sure to focus on what’s good for you and don’t take for granted the time you have with people as you truly don’t know what’s around the next corner. I know this is all advice that’s given probably often, but I needed to write this out and write my feelings……keep pushing forward!

Ramblings

Being strong……

I’ve clearly had this topic on my mind as first is a post I started a week or so ago then just below it is the post I wrote this evening……..both the start and the full piece were to good not to share and I chose to keep them together as one post so the next paragraph was start one on the topic and the the bold title starts take 2 of me typing out my thoughts…….

So life has thrown me all kinds of curveballs and obstacles, but I always have kept smiling and pushing forward. I’ve been told lately by several amazing people that I’m always a happy person, have a positive attitude and help motivate others. Despite everything I’ve been through I do I just keep a smile on my face and only a select few know my internal struggles.

One of The hardest things….

One of the hardest things as an adult, well even as a kid is being “the strong one and the happy one!”

I’ve always been labeled the strong one and the one who’s always happy no matter what life throws at me. While I know people mean this in a good way and a sign that I’ve got some good characteristics, it’s sometimes hard to hear too. It’s hard to hear when I’m fighting my internal demons, when I’m struggling to push through a situation no one knows about, when I don’t feel happy but have put on a smile to hide my pain!

The strong ones we need help too! I definitely don’t know how to ask for it and I usually will push that help aside, but deep down I also know I need it too!!!!! I need someone to be the strong one for me, to help me push forward, to help me see that I can stand up against the waves trying to knock me down. 

I’ve been faced with some situations I never imagined and battles I could have never guessed I’d fight. While I do push through and persevere and usually with a smile on my face, I know I’m not always as strong as people think I am. I fight my battles silently and alone, or mostly alone except a few very dear people who know my struggles. Though even those who know my struggles tend to not see me when I break down either. 

I know others have situations that are so much worse then the ones I’ve gone through too. They may even cover their pain with smiles bigger and brighter then mine. But we all have our ways of coping and to all those fighting battles be it with a smile on your face or tears rolling down your face remember there’s always someone in your corner whether you see them or not!