I’ve clearly had this topic on my mind as first is a post I started a week or so ago then just below it is the post I wrote this evening……..both the start and the full piece were to good not to share and I chose to keep them together as one post so the next paragraph was start one on the topic and the the bold title starts take 2 of me typing out my thoughts…….
So life has thrown me all kinds of curveballs and obstacles, but I always have kept smiling and pushing forward. I’ve been told lately by several amazing people that I’m always a happy person, have a positive attitude and help motivate others. Despite everything I’ve been through I do I just keep a smile on my face and only a select few know my internal struggles.
One of The hardest things….
One of the hardest things as an adult, well even as a kid is being “the strong one and the happy one!”
I’ve always been labeled the strong one and the one who’s always happy no matter what life throws at me. While I know people mean this in a good way and a sign that I’ve got some good characteristics, it’s sometimes hard to hear too. It’s hard to hear when I’m fighting my internal demons, when I’m struggling to push through a situation no one knows about, when I don’t feel happy but have put on a smile to hide my pain!
The strong ones we need help too! I definitely don’t know how to ask for it and I usually will push that help aside, but deep down I also know I need it too!!!!! I need someone to be the strong one for me, to help me push forward, to help me see that I can stand up against the waves trying to knock me down.
I’ve been faced with some situations I never imagined and battles I could have never guessed I’d fight. While I do push through and persevere and usually with a smile on my face, I know I’m not always as strong as people think I am. I fight my battles silently and alone, or mostly alone except a few very dear people who know my struggles. Though even those who know my struggles tend to not see me when I break down either.
I know others have situations that are so much worse then the ones I’ve gone through too. They may even cover their pain with smiles bigger and brighter then mine. But we all have our ways of coping and to all those fighting battles be it with a smile on your face or tears rolling down your face remember there’s always someone in your corner whether you see them or not!